Bas ouh bas, ni dah berapa kali ah aku terlepas naek bas. =)

Assalamualaikum
Yesterday was kinda a big day for me. Both my final examination and ToEFL results were released. Though I was waiting for both results, I did not expect that it will be this soon. Alhamdulillah. I can say that both are better than my expectation. However, being me, I still think of all the what-ifs and I-should- have.
What if I score better in my second test?
I should have done better in my ToEFL. I should have study for it much earlier.
I think it is an attitude that I cannot escape from. I would always look back and ask myself about all those different paths that I could take. I could not say for sure that it is not good. However, it is not a reason for me to not be thankful for what I have already achieved. I am who I am today because of all those seemingly bad choices that I had in my past.
So, yeah. Both of them are good and I should really not ask for more than that.
Fatwa kaum beruk is an old article by Hamka. It is about people who rationalize things that they should not do by giving irrational excuses. You should read this article first to understand my point here.
We, human, can always create a lot of reasons for our actions. Be it good or bad. We can just create an excuse out of nothing. You can  ask your friends about their bad habit and then they can tell you something that sounds plausible and convincing. And yet you know that it is an excuse.
The 27th hadith of the 40-hadith of Imam Nawawi  is as following

Dan daripada Waabisoh ibn Ma'bad r.a. beliau berkata: Aku telah menemui Rasulullah SAW lalu Baginda bersabda: Engkau datang mahu bertanya tentang kebajikan? Aku berkata: Ya. Baginda bersabda: Mintalah fatwa dari hatimu. Kebajikan itu ialah suatu perkara yang diri dan hati merasa tenang tenteram terhadapnya, dan dosa itu itu ialah suatu perkara yang tergetar dalam dirimu dan teragak-agak di hati, sekalipun ada orang yang memberikan fatwa kepadamu dan mereka memberikan fatwa kepadamu.

According to Wabisah bin Ma'bad, radiyallahu 'anhu, who said:

I came to the Messenger of Allah, sallallahu 'alayhi wasallam, and he said: "You have come to ask about righteousness ?" " Yes," I answered. He said: "Consult your heart. Righteousness is that about which the soul feels tranquil and the heart feels tranquil, and sin is what creates restlessness in the soul and moves to and fro in the breast, even though people give you their opinion (in your favour) and continue to do so."

We should know better about ourselves. If we know that our action creates restlessness inside us and we dont want others to know about it, we can be pretty sure that it is not a good one. We can create hundreds or even thousands of excuses. But deep down inside our heart, we know that our action is wrong. So, stop giving excuses that you know will never be a good justification for you in the afterlife.

Forgive the diversity, people. We are just different from each other.

I am done with my ToEFL. Pray for me friends. =)

Watching a debate between an atheist and a muslim for the past two hours makes me feel that we always try to rationalize all things that happen around us. I am not saying that it is not a good thing. Nor am I saying that we should rationalize. I dont know, there are a lot of things going around in my mind. I have read a few early chapters of Dr in the House by Dr. M. One of the chapter -the third chapter precisely- talk about his being a Malay. One of thing he wrote is about proverbs. Malay has too much proverbs, so much that people can always find one that contradicts another. The same thing goes to reasoning. I do not know for sure about things that I should or should not do. Say, for example, a friend confided to me about something that he should not do. What should I do? Should I scold him? Should I report about him to the higher authority? Should I listen to him and just let things that happened happened? We do not have the exact answer. But we do have faith. We should believe that if we are doing thing with a good intention and we do it the right way, we should not worry about the result of our action. If it turn out to work well, we should feel happy that we are doing the right thing. If the result seems not the be a good one, have faith and pray hard that it will turn into a good one. I still remember a saying from someone I dont remember. See, I want to give a credit but I just cant remember. So, that guy, or maybe girl, said that it is so much easier connecting the dot looking backward. Indeed, I agreed. It is so much easier to look back and say, Ouh, i am happy that I took that action or Now I can tell why I didnt do it or If I know that this is gonna happen, then I wont do it. We are not sure about anything that happen in  the future. Okay, we do have some clues but the future is so blur and there are so many uncertainties in it. It is always easier to connect the dots looking backward. Getting back to the debate, one of the question posed to both of them is about their tendency to use natural phenomenon as the evidence of their argument. Say that, one day, the scientists observed and concluded-and we are talking about a unanimous conclusion- in favor of the other person, what will be their stand in this matter? Will they change their mind? Both of them had taken their stands. But as for me, I would say that we should not have faith only when things are so much in favor of us. When all the things in this world are against us but we have confident that we are the right one and we stay with our stand, that is faith. Again, some people just can call it arrogance. That bring me to another argument in the debate. Ah, how random can I actually be? Why are there different interpretation of quranic verses? Because we are just human beings. We are interpreting things based on our reference frame. The westerns labelled the people who fight against the imperialists for their own soil as rebellious but the others who are at the other side of the world call these people as hero, warrior and saviors. People are seeing things differently. That is why we interpret the same thing differently.
Yes, for me, this whole science, physics, chemistry and mathematics are mere attempts by human to rationalize thing. We just cannot accept things without questioning. That is why Newton came up with his theory. And so did Einstein and all other scholars. It is good to question. But when things do not come the way it should have been, we should not jump into conclusion. Have faith.
At the end of the day,

And I have not created the jinn and the men except that they should serve Me                                              (Az-Zariyat 51:56)

 If you happened to not understand about the debate that I was talking about, you can see it here, here and here

Alhamdulillah, I am at my home, celebrating eidul adha with my family. Just arrived at my house at approximately 4.30 am. Though the journey was much more faster than what I expect(seriously, I thought I will arrived after eidul adha prayer), it turned out to be a very meaningful one. I missed my bus, which was scheduled to depart at 8.30 p.m. Truly, it was my fault since I didnt remind them that my bus was supposed to depart early, though I actually told them already. I thought that their bus would depart at the same time as my bus, but turned out that their bus departed at 9. And I left Cemara at 8.36. Yeah, 6 minutes after my bus departed. I knew that it was my fault. I should have clarified about the schedule first.
While we were settling down in the taxi, the driver asked me about my bus and he was truly shocked when I said that I was late. He drove really fast and took shortcut to cut the travelling time. No taxi that I ever ride used shortcut previously. He was really nice. In two consecutive days, I have met two nice taxi drivers. My whole perception about taxi drivers have changed. Hahaha.
Still, I missed my bus. The woman at the counter smiled when I asked about my bus. She said that she had been calling me a few times before the bus departed. I tried asking a few other bus companies whether they still had any vacant seat in their buses but obviously, there was none. All seats were sold out since three weeks ago. My mum was really mad when I told her that I missed my bus. Truth be told, I had missed my trips a few times already. That is why she was really mad when I told her about it. Though I thought that my dad will be mad too, he didnt. He was really understanding, not to say that my mum didnt, and I told him that I will go back to my college and sleep there.
When I arrived at the counter to buy a new ticket, the woman told me that there was another person that didnt show up on time too. And she asked me whether I want to ride the bus or not. Of course I wanted. And surprisingly, it was not one empty seats but seven. LOL. I took two empty seats. What a joke. I missed my bus and I actually rode another bus FOC and I got one extra seat. Hahaha.
When we arrived at Merapoh later that night, the bus driver told me that my bus was there too and if I were to stop at Pasir Puteh, I have to change my bus. At last, I had the opportunity to ride my own bus. Hahaha.

p/s >> my nine-year old brother asked me just now,

When will I get marry?

Now, what should I answer?

Any suggestion?

Last night, Hot Wheels collectors had some sort of gathering at Subang. So, being a roommate of a Hot-Wheels enthusiast(maniac would suit him better =) ) and also a classmate of another enthusiast, I followed them to the gathering. I joined them once before. It was fun seeing people chatting around about their hobby and collections. But then, it is not my kind of thing. I dont have that much knowledge about cars. But, this time, Paan joined us too. So, I was not alone and I had someone to talk about something other than cars. No offence, people. You guys are great but I am not so much into Hot Wheels. =)
After finishing their race at Subang, we cramped into Syamils myvi (forgive my punctuation. Too much C++.Cant blame me) and went to another gathering at Putrajaya. So, this was the main reason I joined them last night. It has been quite a long time I did not watch movies at the cinema. One reason being is that my mum asked me to stop watching movies at the cinema. But then, I had just finished my exam, so I should reward myself, or I thought so. The plan was Paan and I watch Real Steel while Syamil and Ajim go for the gathering. Then, they pick us up and we go back to Shah Alam and stay somewhere else till 6 in the morning. Nice. But, the thing that happen was Syamil and Ajim went back to Shah Alam first due to an urgency while Paan and I finished the awesome movie. So, we finished at 3 am and the first bus leaving Putrajaya to Pasar Seni  should be departing at around 6 am. Okay, three hours in Putrajaya, during the wee hours of the morning, are not the same as three hours in KL. No people walking on the streets. One or two cars every five minutes. No 24-hour McD. It is totally different.
At first, we thought that we may walk to Putrajaya Sentral and sleep there. But, practically, that would cover more than 10 kilometers, or maybe 20. So, we decided to stop any random car passing by and asked the driver to send us to the sentral. After a few fail attempts, a car stopped. Of course it should stop. It was a taxi. We were quite disappointed since we expect to get a free ride. So, we told the driver that we would just walk. We already started to walk away from the driver when he called me and, Alhamdulillah, praise be to Allah, he said that he would like to send us to our destination, without asking first where would it be. FOC. Awesome. See, I am a pessimist, or maybe a realist. I expected that no one would stop since it was 3 in the morning. What kind of people would be wandering around, on foot, during that that time of the day? But, as always, I was wrong. And I am happy that I was wrong.

Dah abes exam....Alhamdulillah.

"People who think ibadah is just for deeds are like people who think life is just for breathing. they're missing something.."

I quoted this one from a friend, Yusri Jamaluddin, who posted it on facebook. It was like one month ago that he posted it but recently I felt the burning desire to write something regarding this post. I cannot agree more with this statement.  Especially the last sentence. They are missing something. Before I continue on my post, this is the comment from my other friend. 

"Life is not just for breathing. its for filling those breaths with good things(actions,words,etc). ibadah is not just for deeds. its for shaping u up and making u a better muslim. know the ibadah, understand it, and feels it. correct me if i am wrong." 

This words are given by my roommate, Firdaus Razali. In my view, he get it right. Ibadat is not only about worshipping the god. If we understand the hidden meaning behind each ibadat that we do, we can apply it in our life.

"Recite, [O Muhammad], what has been revealed to you of the Book and establish prayer. Indeed, prayer prohibits immorality and wrongdoing, and the remembrance of Allah is greater. And Allah knows that which you do." Al-Ankabut (29:45)

It is stated in the Quran that our prayer can help us in avoiding immorality and wrongdoings. Thus, five prayers per day are not meant to be a form of ibadat only. By performing our prayer, we can behave better and avoid doing things that are not supposed to be done in our daily life. 

" Wahai pada pemuda, barangsiapa yang mempunyai kemampuan dari kalangan kamu, maka berkahwinlah, kerana kahwin itu boleh menjaga pandangan dan boleh menjaga kehormatan. Jika kamu tidak mampu maka berpuasalah, kerana pada puasa itu ada penjagaan "

Fasting, like prayers, are divided into two, compulsory and optional. Both have their own meaning. In the hadith, both men and women are asked to marry if they are able to do so. If they are not, they are asked to fast because fasting can weaken the desire for sex. There are some meanings and reasons for the deeds that Allah asked us to do.
Getting to my point, I really feel that it is important for us to understand the meaning for each ibadat that we do. This will help us in getting more sincere in performing them. By that, I am not saying that we need not to be sincere if we do not understand the meaning behind every ibadat. By all means, we should. 
Wearing hijab is a form of ibadat. For those who cover their aurat for fear of disobeying Allah, they will be rewarded for their deed. However, covering aurat for the sake of doing it is not something that we should do. Again, I'm not saying that if that is the case, we should not do it. By all means, we should. However, it is important for us to understand the meaning behind wearing hijab, or for that matter, covering aurat. It is a form of protection.A protection to protect us from our nafsu and others as well. Thus if one wears hijab but at the same time, she is wearing a tight jean, or maybe the hijab is not covering her chest, her hijab is not protecting her from others. And it does not protect her from herself too. And, god forbid, her action might become a slander for Islam. Thus, understand that, our ibadat is not just for the sake for deeds but there are some meanings behind them.
And do not get me wrong. I am not saying that women are the only wrong party here. Men have a big responsibility. 

Dari Ammar bin Yasir berkata, ia mendengar dari Rasulullah SAW berkata : " Tiga yang tidak memasuki syurga sampai bila-bila iaiatu Si DAYUS, si wanita yang menyerupai lelaki dan orang yang ketagih arak" lalu sahabat berkata : Wahai Rasulullah, kami telah faham erti orang yang ketagih arak, tetapi apakah itu DAYUS? , berkata nabi : "IAITU ORANG YANG TIDAK MEMPERDULIKAN SIAPA YANG MASUK BERTEMU DENGAN AHLINYA (ISTERI DAN ANAK-ANAKNYA) - ( Riwayat At-Tabrani ; Majma az-Zawaid, 4/327 dan rawinya adalah thiqat)

and in another hadith,

 Apakah dayus itu wahai Rasulullah? Jawab Nabi : Iaitu seseorang ( lelaki) yang membiarkan kejahatan ( zina, buka aurat, bergaul bebas ) dilakukan oleh ahlinya ( isteri dan keluarganya)  

Last but not least, 

And I have not created the jinn and the men except that they should serve Me                                        (Az-Zariyat 51:56)

Yeah, I am one hell of a judgmental person. I got to admit it. I can easily jump to conclusion whenever I saw something. Sometimes, I evaluate person even on a simple basis such as clothing and bags. I know that this is not fair but it is inside me. I cannot just deny the fact that I have that tendency. But then, I always try to fight those biased, inaccurate judgment. I always do. And I can even do it to the extent that I defend the acts of that person.
I do judge, people. I am not an angel. I always tell others do not judge so that it will also reminds me not to judge others.

Ever heard of slippery slope? I learned about it in my Speech Communication class last spring semester. It is a reasoning when you relate an event  with another subsequent event that seems to have a relationship with the former. A great example of such situation is a poem which I, and certainly most of us, learned when I was in primary school
   Siakap Senohong
      Gelama Ikan Duri;
   Bercakap bohong
      Lama-lama mencuri.
Though slippery slope is said to be unreliable since usually people do not provide any strong proof regarding such situation, I do think that it can be used in many ways. One of them is to remind ourselves about thing we should and should not do. In order to avoid big mistakes, keep yourself away from small mistakes. I've heard a talk from a well-known ustaz about adultery. If syaitan come to us and straight away ask us to commit adultery, we will most probably say that it is sinful. But then, of course it is not the way we all fall into big mistakes. We all start with small sins such as going out, dating, walking home together and etc.
In psychology, there is a method called 'Foot in the Door'. According to psychologists, to accomplish a big and seemingly impossible mission, start with a small one. To borrow a car from a neighbor, start with asking to use his bicycle. To cheat someone's money, start with borrowing a small amount. Give a good impression and you can move on to the next stage. The same method applied to our life. If we normalize all the small sins, then, we are bound to do the bigger one later in our life. Thus, the right solution for all of us is

"DO NOT COMPROMISE"

I know that things are easier said than done, but remember, there are always reward for those who are patient.

I know that this is, like , the 247th time I said the same thing, but I still gonna say it.

"Be the change that you want to see"

If you are hoping to see a change in this world, you must guide the others to make the change. The world will not simply change by saying one or two words and putting a hope that the others will think for themselves. I don't know if there is someone out there who change the world by mere words, but I certainly know that I have not see it. At least, that was what happening for the past 19 years of my life. 

When I first saw the banner on the forum/discussion about hudud at McD section 18, I already set my heart that I will be there for the forum. And Alhamdulllah, I was there up until about two hours ago. Since it is written under INTEC's rules and regulation that all of us have to be back in the hostel before 11, I had to excuse myself before we even started the second round of the discussion. I am very happy that I had the opportunity to see the intellects from both UMNO and PAS sit together and discuss about hudud in a quite calm manner. May this become the start for a better future InsyaAllah.I was also given the opportunity to know a great person today. One of the panelist of the forum today is Fathul Bari Mat Jahaya, a young ulama' of UMNO. I love his calm manner in giving his points and views on the topic given. No matter on which party you are siding, as long as you are fighting for the haq and it is based on the al quran and as-sunnah, InsyaAllah the success will worth all the pain you have gone through

Being a committee of a student body for a multiracial program does make all the political issues become more reasonable and comprehensible for me. As I said earlier, making things reasonable may help us to understand people and their actions more. To be a good leader, you will not always win the hearts of the people around you. Face it.

It's 2.51 a.m and I have not sleep yet. It is not that I am not sleepy but I just dont want to lie down yet.
So, yesterday was, and still is, not my birthday. Someone had change my facebook profile and set October 1 as my birthday. My fb wall was flooded with all the wishes from some of my friends that apparently did not know my real birthday. Lol. It is not important for them to remember my birthday at the first place. Okay, some of them actually know and they did posted about it on my wall. So, now I know that some people do remember my birthday. Wee~
Worst of all, my friends did throw a birthday song while we were having our dinner earlier. We were waiting for all the food to be served first before we start eating. It was a little bit weird since we usually don't wait for everyone to get his meal first before eating. Paan and Hazim arrived a little bit late, so we did not wait for them. Suddenly, Terence started singing a happy-birthday song. I was blur at that time and I tried to recall if it was someone's birthday. I only realized about it when everyone was smiling and grinning at me. Seriously, it was a very funny moment. They did know that it was only a prank but still they want to celebrate it. LOL.

I actually wanna write about one of my favorite quote by Fyodor Dostoevsky, a famous writer. It was quoted in the talk given by Sam Richard which I posted in the post earlier.

While nothing is easier than to denounce the evildoer, 

nothing is more difficult than to understand him.

 Changing the context of the evildoer to a more applicable situation, I would like to say that it is always easy to denounce the action of others. Yes, I do agree that, to some extent, we need to disagree with others' actions. I do have my own opinions on others' action and I usually disagree with people's opinions. I also have the tendency to argue with others even on a small matter. However, I try to understand people. Why they do things that we think are not appropriate? Why they do things that they themselves know are not appropriate?
Understanding and accepting is two different things. To understand is to know their intentions, their feelings, their insecurities, their perceptions and their emotions. Even if we cannot do fully do it, we should try to do so before saying anything. Know that judgments do hurt others' feelings.

In the end, we are just clueless about others. Even sometimes, we do not know why we do things that we have done. To accept their action is another thing. If it is against the law or against Islam, we clearly cannot accept it. Understanding is important so that we did not mock and judge others for their actions.

A few days ago, I had posted an article which was written by my friend. However, being a noob in this blogging thing, my post cant be seen clearly. And I don't know how to make it better. So, it would be more easy for me to delete the post and provide another link should anyone is interested in reading this article
Secularism by Yusri Jamaluddin. Go ahead. Read and ponder upon the article. It is a great one.

" Step outside of your tiny little world and step inside the tiny little world of others. " - Sam Richards

Yesterday, I have been to a talk by my counselor and she was being very nice to send me home after we had finished the workshop. Though it was me who requested for that help, she did not say no. So, on our way home, being me who like to have random talk now and then, I ask her about some random topic which bring us to a good one. Understanding others. And this is one of my favorite Tedx talk ever.  A very nice topic being discussed in a radical way. Ponder upon it, guys. Listen with an open mind. And believe me, you can obtain so much things from understanding other's people world.

 I found this article while I was google-ing some other thing in the net. Well, this can sum up about what have always happened to me before. Thumbs up Bernard. Lol

For those who ask me what I do with myself all day

By Bernard Mendelman

I woke up at three in the morning. I had a sore shoulder. I must have twisted it while sleeping. I got out of bed in the darkness and went to my clothes closet where I kept a heating pad on one of the shelves. I opened the closet light and retrieved it and returned to bed with the heating pad on my shoulder. I fell back to sleep until six o’clock.
I saw that the heating pad was still on, but before I was able to turn it off, I had the same sudden urge to clear my bladder that recently caused French actor Gérard Depardieu to urinate in the aisle of an airplane. Luckily, I made it to the toilet in time. I didn’t feel like going back to sleep, so I got dressed in the dark and went to the front door to get the daily newspaper but it hadn’t been delivered yet. I then proceeded to open my
computer where I planned to read my emails that came in during the night.
While waiting for the computer to start up, I went into the kitchen to have breakfast. Turning on the light in the kitchen, I noticed I was wearing one black sock and one brown sock. I made myself a bowl of Rice Krispies and milk. It seems to me that Rice Krispies don’t snap, crackle and pop as much as they once did.
However when I carried the bowl from the kitchen counter to the kitchen table, it did snap, crackle and pop all over me, leaving a huge stain on my pants.
I knew I had some stain remover somewhere. As I started searching for it, I remembered it was very steamy last night and I came home too late to water my plants. So I went out on the terrace and turned the hose on, but the phone started ringing. It was one my friends calling to tell me that one of our chums came in from Israel last night and six of the old gang were going out for brunch later on and I should join them.
While I was on the phone there was a knock on my door. It was the condo super telling me that my car-lights were on. They’re supposed to turn off automatically, but somehow they didn’t. I went down to the garage, got into the car, but the battery wouldn’t start. I was about to call CAA for a boost but before that I went up to the lobby to check if there was any mail.
When I arrived, I met a neighbour who said it was a beautiful day and asked if I would I like to join him for a walk. I told him that I would walk with him to the library as I wanted to put myself on the waiting list for Jane Fonda’s new book, Prime Time.
At the library I relaxed in a comfy chair and read a few magazines and out-of-town newspapers. I must have dozed off, because it was four in the afternoon, when I looked at my watch. After walking home, I went to turn on CNN to see what happened in the world during the day, but I couldn’t find my TV remote. I decided to make dinner and look for it later.
As I ate my dinner I realized: I never turned off the heating pad; never closed the light in the closet; never read the daily newspaper; never opened my emails; I was still wearing one black and one brown sock; I never found the stain remover; never turned off the hose; the terrace was probably flooded by now; I never made it to brunch; never phoned CAA; never picked up my mail; never put myself on the list for the library book and probably will never find the remote.
Although I didn’t accomplish a damn thing, I was totally exhausted from my busy, busy day.
riben@videotron.ca  

from the surburban.com

ah..writing. It was, and still is, never my hobby. I may have some thoughts that I would like to share with people but I am not that good in words. It is easier to talk about something rather than to write about them. When I am talking about something, anything, I never take too much time to put all those thoughts in good words. Screw all those grammatical errors and vocabs. I dont care about them. Even if I care, I cant do anything about it. It is not that reversible. But things are different when it is in writing form. I do care about all those vocabs and grammar-nonsense (the very thing I'm doing right now). Really take my time to finish a writing. Sigh*
So, what's up peeps? I dont really update my blog much for the reason which I have stated above.Lol. Pretty obvious right. I would like to share some quotes from a book which I re-read again today, Rooftop Rant by Hlovate ( well, I can be pretty jiwang these days. C=).
*looking through the book to find all those inspiring quotes*
err. I think I found some just now but now I realized that the book is quite thick for me to look through it again.lol. So, malas la..
The main thing that I get from the book is

"DON'T JUDGE. IT HURTS"

Salam...These past 11 months have been a wonderful part of my life.I have so much fun with all these great people of ADFP. Before I continue blabbering about those experiences, I would like to say that some of my friends told me that I am gaining weight these past few months. Truth to be told, I am conscious about it. Maybe I should try do something about it later. Maybe

Before

After

It is a lot of difference right. Better do something...hahaha

Back to the business. So, I would like to share some of the great moments I have during my foundation in INTEC. These are some random pictures...OK.not so random

These are the pictures when I first started in INTEC. 

Makan makan ikan bakar di Klang

Trip ke Taiping (3, 4, 5 Jun)

Hi there..
I have restrained myself for quite a long time from posting anything in this blog. Partly it is due to the reason that I want to make a special post for all the activities, hangouts, trips and whatever things I have had during this summer. However, as a self-reminder, I think it is appropriate for me to have this single post for the time being.
During my high school, I was called with many kinds of names and labels (label may seem too negative a word but i don't know any other term. So, forgive my inadequacy). One of them was " nak menang, ambik!" My friends frequently tell me that I always want to win. Be it a small talk or a big argument, I always want to win. I do care about that label and it always managed to shut me up whenever I was talking. And I must say that it has been a long time since my friend call me that. At least, it stop after our graduation from high school.
Somehow, I bring the label together to Intec with me. My friend here also said that I want to win every time we talk. I may have the disposition to not conform with others. In fact, it has always been a pleasure to have a small debate every now and then. However, too much of an attitude is always a problem. People don't like others opposing them. It is a fact and now, I am feeling the effect.
I have had a conversation with my friend, Fawzan, about this. He told me that I have to learn to keep things inside and not to let everything out. I need to control my disposition and learn to follow the flow. It is important to have our own opinion but find a right time to say it out. As a reminder to myself, please shut you mouth and listen to others too.

I am interested in a newspaper article that I had read this morning. The writer wrote about punishing those so-called negligent parents who caused the death of their children. I can agree no more that, as parents, they need to be a lot more cautious especially when dealing with kids younger than three years old. No mistake should be done cause it can harm the lives of the kids. 

However, no matter cautious one can be, there is always a chance that thing may go wrong. It is not that I am wishing something bad. Ideally, nobody want to do a mistake. Realistically, we all do a lot of mistakes at some points in our lives. Punishing those parents who had already lost their child will not do any good. Punishments are made to scared people so that they do not disobey the law. Drug dealers are punished with a life sentence so that no one will become a drug dealer, so that when one is about to sell a drug, they will think of the consequences. 

However, no one in his or her right mind will do something that are harmful to his or her child when he or she is aware of the consequences. Nobody will lock his or her car, walk away and then remember that he or she will be punished if his or hr child die. The loss is already a severe punishment for most of us. Little, if any, people will think about punishments in this situation. Furthermore, it is already heart-wrenching to lose a child. There is no need to put salt onto a bleeding wound

Atusa Election poster

a childish one, may I say. Credit to Zairul

Credit to Syamil Sani. My friend sent his warm regard.
It's cool.

Credit to Yusri Jamaluddin. and, my friend sent you a warm regard too.

 "You are awesome," said he, and me too C=

• " Blaja rerajin, ko 2 pandai. Jgn sia-siakan hidup ko. jangan lupakan aku"
• " Jangan malas, sweat x bermaksud rajin "
• "kita ibarat cam wau kat sebelah, dh putus tali n terbang dibawa angin.
  Kita? sama cam wau...bawak haluan msg2..tp..persahabatan kita xkan putus cam tali wau...
  always remember u... C:"
• " Be yourself, be independent"
• "Kw org, kawan, awek paling best pernah aku ada"

I am motivated.. Thanks guys

The results for our Spring semester were released this morning. It was pretty fast, considering that we have just finished our examination last week. And I was quite nervous actually. I knew that I screw my final paper for Calculus 1. And, other subjects were not that great. So, long story cut short. I got 3.14 for this semester and my cgpa is 3.19. Not that good but acceptable. Be thankful, Afiq

Looking back at my past, I feel bad. I tried, or I thought so, to maintain the relationships between me and my friends. I think I failed. I have not catch up with lots of my friends. I do not know many details about them. Where are they studying? What are they studying? I feel so bad. I have once listen to a talk that we did not choose our friends. Most of us befriend with each others because we are stuck with them. We are working at the same place; we are studying at the same place; we are doing the same thing. It is because we have a common ground. Once we lost the common ground, once we choose our own path, it will never be the same again. I do not want to believe him. I honor a friendship so much that I don't want to accept his belief. But then, I began to feel that it is the reality.
When we are moving on, we may feel bounded to our memory. We always think that we want to be with those people from our past. Then, we start to make new friends. We have new faces on our Facebook. We start to comment on their statuses. We know what are happening to them. We may want to do the same with our so-called old friends. But we have no idea about what they are talking about. They are laughing but we are not around them. So, we don't understand the humors. We started to look less at their status and everything. And the rest is clear enough already.
Or maybe even worse, Facebook start to make a friendship easier. "Ouh, I haven't catch up with him  for a long time." We scroll down his or her wall, looking for the posts made by him or her and others. We look at their photos. "So, now he has a girlfriend." " Ouh, she has had a vacation to Kelantan. I wasn't there at that time. Too bad." We know a little bit of his or her current life. So, why bother to meet or even to call for a catch up?
Or, this maybe happened too. We thought that they are happy with their lives now. So, it is okay for us to keep a distance.
I don't say that all of these are happening to me. Nor am I denying that some of these are related to me. My friend, shahir yasin posted on my wall last friday. "ko dah lame x tego aku kan." I felt so bad. Yeah. It is true. I have not talk to him for a very long time. My bad.
I will try much harder to bring all those memories back. We may not see each others much. In fact, we did not see each other at all. But, I will try to catch up with all of you.

This is a very inspiring talk.
We are more likely to do a mistake or to regret choosing an option when we are given the choice. Not to say that we should limit our choice. But being happy with what we get is as good as, if not better than, being happy with what we want. So, let's have no regret in our life.

Sometimes, I do wonder, what have happened to our politic. It seems kinda messy. Party A will talk badly about Party B and vice versa. That, in fact, is normal. However, the way they put it makes things bad. Have some courtesy to step out of other's privacy. Not that I am supporting or, for that matter, blaming anyone. I am generalizing here.

A very memorable trip to Kuala Terengganu. We may not go to many places but lying on the beach and watching the stars were just plainly awesome. But I'm not going to talk much about the trip. At first, I think that I want to do so, but I found something that interests me more.

I found this strangers again first at izuan's blog, and I am amused with it. This is one of the reasons why I consider relationship as a very serious matter. Breaking up is a painful stage in every relationship. Ok, I may generalize, but I really think that someone will be hurt at this stage. But for me, the last stage where two people become strangers again is the stage that I don't want to go through. It is just a pain to see someone whom once my lover did not talk to me or maybe even worse, did not even glance at me. Not that I have ever felt it. I did not even go through the second stage yet. Haha. Still, I know the feeling when a friend, a very close one, ignore me. It is really painful. 

For me, a relationship should end with a marriage. People may say that we should first have the experience of being in a relationship before we take thing seriously. But, I still think that we should not toy with others' hearts. Why bother to have a relationship if we never have an intention of ending it with a marriage? One more thing, isn't it awkward to meet your ex, knowing so much details about him or her, but still cannot even utter a single word to him or her? 

Missed the bus again. Sigh. I was planning to have a trip to Kuala Terengganu with some of my roommates. It was well planned. At least, that was what I thought. So, i bought the earliest bus on the schedule. It was bound to be at the station at 9.15 am. Planning to depart early is just my routine. I never missed a bus for waking up late. Once, when I was in Kuala Lumpur last year, I missed a bus but it was due to the commuter service from my friend house. So, it will never happen here. I will just take a nice walk to the bus station. It will take no more than fifteen minutes. I can make it seven if I walk faster.
Yesterday, I started to read an online manga at mangereader.com. I forgot the exact title. If I'm not mistaken, it was Change 123 or something around that line. It is natural for me to finish everything in one shot. Ok, almost everything. I always procrastinate on finishing my assignment. I usually do my conclusion for my essay at the very last minutes. Haish. Digressing. Them, I try to finish the manga last night. Yes, I managed to. But with an expensive price. I slept at 5 and there is no way I can stay awake after my Subuh prayer. Ok, I actually can resist the temptation if not for my confidence that I can wake up at 8. And here goes everything.
I woke up at 10.50 in the morning. One and a half hour late from the departure time. I thought it was 9.50. So, I was hoping that the bus will be late or at least I can take the eleven-a.m one. I was rushing but still I was not panic. When I realized that I was wrong, everything become messy. I did not found my clothes. I did not withdraw my money yet.
I managed to arrive at the bus station at 11 something. I saw a bus waiting at the station. It was bound for KT. Fuhh.. But still, the clerk is not there. So, I cannot by ticket for the bus. Seeing the bus departing in front of me was really a pain. And now, here I am, writing a post for my blog in my home sweet home. I am killing my time actually. There is a bus at 1 p.m, but I did not buy my ticket yet. So, pray hard that there will be no more problem after this. InsyaAllah

I'm home. Actually been home since two days ago. Finally, it was the end of the daunting yet fun semester of Adfp. I hope that I can fulfill all my mission for this summer semester. It will not be wasted, much, on loitering around, playing cards, watching movies, so on and so forth. InsyaAllah.
I cannot deny the fact that, though technology can bring two distant people closer, it also can create a distance between two close people.

After a long time spending my evening with classes, sleeping and other not-so-physical activities, I finally did something beneficial: jogging around seksyen 6. The thing that I love about jogging is it make me more rational. I can think about a lot of things that happen around me, including my not-so-good calculus exam just now. Haha. One of the things that I realized is that we seldom look at the process but we only emphasis on the result. Let's say, for example, I flunk my test. Then, I score my final exam and managed to get an A. People will not care about the flunk part. The same case apply if I score my test but I flunk my whole course. People would not see my previous success.
then, let take for example, I flunk my whole study but i become a great businessman. People will not care at all about my academic. And let's take, for example, I graduate with a 4 flat score but i am unemployed. People will never care about my gpa. Then, what is the definition of the real success? You will never stay at the top, nor will you ever stay at the bottom rank. It is a cycle. Then, let me define the real success. It is the success in the hereafter

Today was, and still is, a great day. Good job, guys. I was having enough fun for me to carry with these upcoming finals. I think I can never forget the punch line of the day. A literally punch line.
" I thought you cannot eat that much. It is forbidden, right?"
Ok, I change the sentence a bit. But still, it put some realization back into me. I should not eat that much. It IS forbidden in Islam. I'll try my best to change it. One day.

First, I want to wish good luck for everyone for everything that he or she is doing now, and later. Hope everyone can make the best of his or her day, InsyaAllah. Today, i just feel like writing something in this blog, which, obviously, had been abandoned for quite a long time. 

I know that I have written about this before, but I want to emphasis on how much I care about this particular matter. It is not the outcome that is important, but it is the effort that you put in doing things. I do respect people more for their hard works than for their outcomes. However, it is not my intention to say that the outcome is not important. It is. But the effort just matter more.

It is the end of the semester already and we only have three more day before we started our final exam. Yes, three more days. Ctis20, as always, will be on Saturday. I really hope that someday, I can learn something new, interesting, fascinating and you-name-it without feeling worry about grade, cgpa, cut-off point, aap and whatsoever. This grading system somehow limit my enthusiasm in learning. Maybe I can be like those people who take degree for fun, learning things without even caring if they screw up in their examinations.
And this grading system, somehow, make me compare between people. I may know that grades are not everything but I cannot avoid to compare people based on grades. My impression may not solely based on grades but still, there is some. It is undeniable. Some also may feel inferior when their marks are lower than that of others. At least, I have the feeling. Sometimes. Huhu
Nevertheless, I know that grading system is important. I just happen to hate it. Cant do anything,

Happy birthday to me
happy birthday to me
happy birthday to Afiq/qlate
happy birthday to me.
Wohoo!!!
I'm 19 and I'm old.hehe
thanks people for all the celebration and the gifts.
Dear eugene, from the bottom of my heart, I want to thank all of you for your wonderful cake
I love the part with my name..hehe
For my dear roommates, thanks for at remembering my birthday, which I constantly remind.hehe
For my SAS friends, I am happy that you still remember me as a part of your life.
For my family, I won't be here without you.
To all, thanks for making my life as a wonderful journey

I ma currently busy for the forum, which I will have at 2 pm tomorrow. This is one of the activities in my Critical Thinking class and yes, it does has a carry mark for our final. The thing that I learned from this forum is not about talking in front of others, since I haven't done the forum yet. But I had learnt that you will never shut people's mouth. You do a bad thing, people will, for sure, say a bad thing about you. If you want to do a good thing, people will, still for sure, talk bad about you. This is not new. But this one really make me feel a lot of contempt about the political world in Malaysia. Party A do a good thing, party B will say a bad thing and then, party A will say something bad about party B. And the inverse is true. Can you guys give it a rest? It is damn annoying.

If there is anything that I regret about choosing JPA and ADFP, it will be that we will not fly at the same time. Some of us, insyaAllah will fly this August and others, insyaAllah, next year. I don't like this. Why can't we make it the same for each and every one of us? It is either one year for everyone or just make it two years. Suddenly, I started to feel sentimental. Sigh

During my high school, my add math teacher once said that she used mathematics in many part of her life. But of course i didn't agree. Who will measure the angle of his or her knee while busy hiking? Me? Of course not. But now, the truth is just laid in front of my eyes. My calculus lecturer gave us a motivational talk about critical points, chaos theory and butterfly effects. He related all those stuffs with graph. Awesome.

A few days had passed since the end of CNY holidays. It seems like all those good dreams had come to the end. Now, it's all about assignment, load of works and tests. Before that, let's take a look on what I've done during the holiday.
Nothing much actually. I spent a lot of time loitering around with some of my friends. Aidil also came to Cendana to spend some time with me but he ended up finishing his university application here. This guy always does works at the very last minute. Luckily, he is a genius. Of course it is easy for him to complete the application in a short time.
Then, I went for skytrex in Camar Rimba, Shah Alam on Feb 6th with another 9 friends. Just in Seksyen 8 actually. It was fun. Worth the fee paid but most of us feel that it was not enough. Maybe we can go for bungee jumping or maybe paint ball next time. However, that depends a lot on our expenditure for this semester and also the summer semester. I heard that most of the money will be used up during the free time of summer sem. Let's hope for the opposite. Need to save some money for other things too

Why bother?

I am literally the only survivor from the forth floor in this college now. That is not an exaggeration. However, since there is only 24 persons in a floor, there is nothing unusual. Adfp block is always empty at the eve of any holiday. being alone is just a parcel of my life. That is an exaggeration. 

So, nothing much to write here actually. I've attended a counseling camp in Camar Rimba, Shah Alam. I was one of the lucky thirty-nine participants that attend the camp. It was fun. I enjoyed myself there. I also had a chance to chat with our instructor. There, he talked about the importance of having a brand. People know us by seeing our brand. Where are we from, who are we know, etc... Those are the branding that we have with us all the time. So, I asked him. Why bother? Why bother to impress people? In the end, people will always badmouth others. If you do a bad thing, people will obviously judge you as a bad person. If you do a god thing, people will say that you are showing off. So, why bother to even think about other's impressions. They will never satisfied. Why bother?

He satisfied my hunger for an explanation. That bring us to another topic. I found out that I am inclined to psychological and neurological thingy now. I hope that I can take at least one of them as my minor in my degree. It is fun to know about human behavior:how human think, how human act, etc...

Salam... and hi there.
Happy Chinese New Year for all. I've been quite busy these days that I actually found out that I was no longer in a mood to update my blog. However, here I am. Since it is the beginning of our one-week holiday, I am taking this opportunity to update my blog that started to look so old. Lol. I have one story to say today. I've been taking bus for three times today. And all the three bus departed in a five-minute time after I boarded them. I guess I am lucky today. But I was not going to talk about luck today . There were a massive number of people in the bus. We, the people who stand, just can barely move ourselves.
Sometimes I was one of the people who has to wait for an hour in the bus before it departed. Sometimes, I boarded the bus, slept for a while and woke up just to see that the bus was still there. The only difference is the number of people in the bus had just grown a bit. Make some guess. What's the point of me telling this story? Think of it this way. Those days, some people were lucky at the expense of me spending an hour in the bus. Today, I may be the one who is lucky at the expense of other people waiting for an hour in the bus.
Life is just like a wheel. sometimes, we are just the luckiest people in the world. Everything that we do ends up successfully. We are happy. Sometimes, we may say that luck is just not on our side. It was a very bad day for us. We are sad.
This even today has given me some new insight on things that happen around us. Don't be sad if something bad happen and don't be too happy if things are not happening in the way that we want.
I am spending my holiday here in Shah Alam. Not going home.

Life is a learning process. I've learnt a lot of new things in these past few days. Be positive and we can embrace more things in our life. I hope that I can continue with this spirit foe the whole semester.
This sem seems to be a very hectic one. Frankly, it is a hectic one. So many things to do in a very short time. Yet, I enjoyed my time being a student here. As i said, Be positive.

A new year, a new semester and a new start. Yeah. Its 2011 already. I've been away from blogging, facebooking and any internet-related stuffs for weeks. I've updated my windows despite knowing the ingenuity of my windows. So, as the consequence, my laptop can't even load the windows. Sigh. What a problem. It may be a positive things since I didn't waste my time in front of the laptop. But, I have a lot of works to do this semester. Therefore, despite the disadvantages that may come along, having a laptop has become a new necessity for me . Now, I'm counting on Farhan to format my laptop. Thanks an.
Yeah, 2011. No new dreams. Just old ones that still labeled 'in progress'. This year, I can say that "InsyaAllah I will fly next year". Before, I will say that it is in a two-year time which seems to be a very long period for me. Next year is not that far away compared to next two years, right? Lol. Still, some of us will be flying this August. So, good luck guys. Being in a foreign country is not as easy as we think. The challenges that await us in the future are very big - and very hard too. fuhh... Keep praying for help from Allah. InsyaAllah it will be much easier.